|The Peanut in her Moby, needing extra mama time today|
I had such high expectations for this week, so many things I wanted to get done.
This morning, as my week is nearing it's end, I thought, "I can still do this. I can get my sewing project done, clean the house, purge, get on top of some organization". . . .
Then my littlest one woke up teething and with a diaper rash to beat all diaper rashes, children did not listen the way they should and unexpected messes arose. . . .
Aaahhh, the test of character: do I handle things graciously, let go of my plans or do I strive against circumstances, trying to have my way?
Well today I failed, today I was short-tempered. I was not gracious. I let myself stress ( which is a choice). I saw how desperately I need a Savior!
How fitting that in Bible time we just read: Romans 7
18 For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh) nothing good dwells; for to will is present with me, but how to perform what is good I do not find. 19 For the good that I will to do, I do not do; but the evil I will not to do, that I practice. 20 Now if I do what I will not to do, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells in me.
21 I find then a law, that evil is present with me, the one who wills to do good. 22 For I delight in the law of God according to the inward man. 23 But I see another law in my members, warring against the law of my mind, and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin which is in my members. 24 O wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death? 25 I thank God—through Jesus Christ our Lord!
God, I am sorry for my sin today. I am sorry I did not represent you to my kids today. Thank you for your great mercy to me.
Later . . . I sit here sewing with the house peaceful, humbled before my God. Two of my boys sit here next to me playing a game and chatting. I am looking forward to a new day. Thankfully His mercies are new every morning.