Continuing our story of the last couple months . . .
I had started a post recounting more of what we have gone through and realized the focus was all wrong.
I want to be able to share how God has blessed us and shown us grace.
Gabric within a couple weeks was able to be off all meds and oxygen. He has grown into a chubby, very content baby. We are so blessed to have him in our family.
I was worried about him bonding because he was in the NICU and there was a day I couldn't even hold him. Instead he is such a mama's boy :D
He loves to snuggle and is all smiles whenever I make eye contact.
When we were going through the hardest time of the last few months ( I had hemorrhaged twice , had my milk dry up, brought my milk back in, got a breast yeast infection, all while trying desperately to teach my baby to nurse)
I went into my bedroom and looked down at my baby. My eyes filled with tears and as they ran down my face I told him " you are so worth it!!!! All the difficulty is like nothing compared to you".
And then in that quiet moment my heart felt God show me " and so are you".
I don't understand it but I am worth it to God. Not because of me but because of his love.
Despite all the trouble I am He loves me and sent His Son to save me.